每個人都曾經被朋友取過外號。就算沒有，玩遊戲的名字也會慢慢地變成你的外號。
XiuHa, yboi, 69, KKK 等都是外號。
初中時，老師都叫我小麥草。或者現在朋友們都叫我Mark。
其實這些名字我都不喜歡，我喜歡人家叫我名字或是。。。
已經很久沒有人叫我名字了。那天我們一起出去時，她叫我的名字。立刻眩暈了一下，我很開心，等這一刻我等了好多年啊。
講了這麼久，還沒有講我以前第一個花名是什麼。
那是1995年，我上一年級的時候。很記得我是搭superman校車。不要笑，superman的校車很威的，隔壁花園的只可以搭飛馬校車。那時候飛馬有三輛，superman只有一輛，沒聽過物以稀為貴嗎？
superman的司機很好人，雖然我覺得我爸不喜歡他。每天都載我們去草場玩，差不多要上課了才載我們去學校。他又幫我們織跳繩，只要買一包橡膠圈給他，我們在草場玩的時候他就在旁邊織。
我第一次上校車的時候，他就問我，你叫什麼名字，很奇怪的他就把我的名字聽成偉丁（什麼名字來的！）所以就叫我丁丁，不是台灣那個丁丁。久而久之，他們都覺得丁丁不好聽，就改成叫我叮噹，就是doreamon那個叮噹。我真的很懷念這個名字，自從搬家以後就沒有人叫我這個名字了。
Wednesday 30 March 2011
Saturday 26 March 2011
藤井樹
藤井樹的小說，是給emo，寂寞的人看的吧。因為你，
現在終於了解，為什麼當初我會把這些書丟在一邊沒有看。
在沒有人陪的週末，我可以打遍電話聯絡簿里的所有號碼，只求能找一個人陪我一起晃晃，有目的地也好，漫無目標的亂晃也行，只要我身邊有個人，不管是年久失聯的朋友，還是交情頗淺的同學，我都可以接受。
改篇自藤井樹
現在終於了解，為什麼當初我會把這些書丟在一邊沒有看。
在沒有人陪的週末，我可以打遍電話聯絡簿里的所有號碼，只求能找一個人陪我一起晃晃，有目的地也好，漫無目標的亂晃也行，只要我身邊有個人，不管是年久失聯的朋友，還是交情頗淺的同學，我都可以接受。
改篇自藤井樹
Tuesday 22 March 2011
人生的意义到底是什么?
不久前我又看回一個魚夫的故事。沒看過？大概就是：
一個富人看到懶散的魚夫，就問他為什麼不多打些魚，
接著魚夫會問：和你一樣是什麼樣，
富人很驕傲地回答：曬太陽，懶散舒適地生活了。
魚夫笑曰：我現在不正是如此嗎？
我很相信溫故知新這個道理，把一些故事收起來，
現在的生活，就好比一個在鳥籠裡的鳥，或動物園裡的豹。
計算日子的方法，早從一天一天的算，
金錢，來得快，去得也快。
其實，我的願望很簡單，就是不用做。
compounded insterest 的重要性，相信很多人都懂。 There is a big different between current value of RM 1k and future value of RM 1k. Many people think to spend now, they told me that the money we earn is to spend. I agree it was true, but if i can save the money i spend now, i can accumualte them and compounded into 2x, 3x... even 10x. Then wat for we used them now? Maybe i can buy a proton now and then pay the installement every month for 5 years, but how if i save the money for 5 years and i can buy a Lancer with cash after that?
People always ask me to enjoy my life. Yes, i do. It cost me alot!! I got a friend, his CK watch cost him RM 800, CK wallet RM 500, CK necklace RM 300. He also wear Amani Exchange and Guess. Do i need to be this? Is this consider enjoying my life? No i don't think so. I feel comfortable when i wearing Jusco T-shirt, each of them cost me less than RM 20. I will still consider for long time just to buy a 15 bucks t-shirt. Yes, i would also buy expensive stuff, when there is a warehouse sale, sale with 70% will definitely attract me .That's why, i don't think buying luxury is enjoying my life.
I know many are f**king rich, they always travel here travel there. I don't ever take a flight. My mum went to Europe, Australia but ofcoz she didn't me. I didn't blame on her for this. I would earn my own money to travel around the world but not now. My friend also said me: "You save save save, later when u got money to do this stuff, you sudah tak boleh jalan lo~ " Yes i will go travel, once or twice a year is more than enough. I also no need to go so far. People would plan to go for Bali when they are in university, Taiwan when they just start to work, Hong Kong , Japan and Korea step by step. My travel plan is still within Malaysia.
Maybe due to i was courserep during the university, they always ask me to organize for the outing and travel trip. I really want to tell u guys. I really do not go anyway. That's why i don't want to organize. You think i not happy when i organize and seldom people will entertain me. No you are wrong. Although that is the reason that i always spoken. The main reason is i want to save my money.
Ok. I keep on saying i want to say my money. For what? What is your purpose to save money. I honestly tell you, i don't have a plan. Although recently i think that if i have RM 250k, i will open a Subway francis shop. Thanks to AhYap, he makes me clear on my mind and i want to save 100k in 5 years. Somebody told me that it was impossible, most of them are my secondary friends. William even bet with me that i can't get this if i work for people in this 5 years. However, one of my university classmate also told me that it was too slow to get 100k in 5 years. I have no idea why he told me that but i didn't discuss this with him. For me is very easy, now i am 23, i get 100 k when i am 28. If i can get 10% return every year, it will become more than 600 k in 20 years. Maybe in 2036, when i am 48 years old, 600k is not much, but atleat i got 600k.
Please remind that this 600k doesn't include the money i earn after 28. If i also save for a little, just a little enough within this 20 years, i would probably become a millionaire. What is the different between a millionaire while all his money in stock market or investment and another millionaire has a company market value is one million. First of all their living style is totally different.
Come back to the topic. What is the different between me and the fisherman. Yes the fisherman also no need to work now but can i survive if i don't work now? What i want is i don't need to work and i no only able to survive. I also want to enjoy my life. You would say the fisherman is enjoying his life. Yes it is true, but how if the fisherman is boring one day. I definitely a person who very easy feel boring. What could the fisherman do when he feel boring. He don't have money to travel, using his boat? How if the boat damage, how he get the money to repair it? How if one day he sick. Money is everything concern!
Can i conclude that, 我的人生就是為了賺錢？但是賺錢就是為了好好的過我的人生，
結論是無解。
一個富人看到懶散的魚夫，就問他為什麼不多打些魚，
接著魚夫會問：和你一樣是什麼樣，
富人很驕傲地回答：曬太陽，懶散舒適地生活了。
魚夫笑曰：我現在不正是如此嗎？
我很相信溫故知新這個道理，把一些故事收起來，
現在的生活，就好比一個在鳥籠裡的鳥，或動物園裡的豹。
計算日子的方法，早從一天一天的算，
金錢，來得快，去得也快。
其實，我的願望很簡單，就是不用做。
compounded insterest 的重要性，相信很多人都懂。 There is a big different between current value of RM 1k and future value of RM 1k. Many people think to spend now, they told me that the money we earn is to spend. I agree it was true, but if i can save the money i spend now, i can accumualte them and compounded into 2x, 3x... even 10x. Then wat for we used them now? Maybe i can buy a proton now and then pay the installement every month for 5 years, but how if i save the money for 5 years and i can buy a Lancer with cash after that?
People always ask me to enjoy my life. Yes, i do. It cost me alot!! I got a friend, his CK watch cost him RM 800, CK wallet RM 500, CK necklace RM 300. He also wear Amani Exchange and Guess. Do i need to be this? Is this consider enjoying my life? No i don't think so. I feel comfortable when i wearing Jusco T-shirt, each of them cost me less than RM 20. I will still consider for long time just to buy a 15 bucks t-shirt. Yes, i would also buy expensive stuff, when there is a warehouse sale, sale with 70% will definitely attract me .That's why, i don't think buying luxury is enjoying my life.
I know many are f**king rich, they always travel here travel there. I don't ever take a flight. My mum went to Europe, Australia but ofcoz she didn't me. I didn't blame on her for this. I would earn my own money to travel around the world but not now. My friend also said me: "You save save save, later when u got money to do this stuff, you sudah tak boleh jalan lo~ " Yes i will go travel, once or twice a year is more than enough. I also no need to go so far. People would plan to go for Bali when they are in university, Taiwan when they just start to work, Hong Kong , Japan and Korea step by step. My travel plan is still within Malaysia.
Maybe due to i was courserep during the university, they always ask me to organize for the outing and travel trip. I really want to tell u guys. I really do not go anyway. That's why i don't want to organize. You think i not happy when i organize and seldom people will entertain me. No you are wrong. Although that is the reason that i always spoken. The main reason is i want to save my money.
Ok. I keep on saying i want to say my money. For what? What is your purpose to save money. I honestly tell you, i don't have a plan. Although recently i think that if i have RM 250k, i will open a Subway francis shop. Thanks to AhYap, he makes me clear on my mind and i want to save 100k in 5 years. Somebody told me that it was impossible, most of them are my secondary friends. William even bet with me that i can't get this if i work for people in this 5 years. However, one of my university classmate also told me that it was too slow to get 100k in 5 years. I have no idea why he told me that but i didn't discuss this with him. For me is very easy, now i am 23, i get 100 k when i am 28. If i can get 10% return every year, it will become more than 600 k in 20 years. Maybe in 2036, when i am 48 years old, 600k is not much, but atleat i got 600k.
Please remind that this 600k doesn't include the money i earn after 28. If i also save for a little, just a little enough within this 20 years, i would probably become a millionaire. What is the different between a millionaire while all his money in stock market or investment and another millionaire has a company market value is one million. First of all their living style is totally different.
Come back to the topic. What is the different between me and the fisherman. Yes the fisherman also no need to work now but can i survive if i don't work now? What i want is i don't need to work and i no only able to survive. I also want to enjoy my life. You would say the fisherman is enjoying his life. Yes it is true, but how if the fisherman is boring one day. I definitely a person who very easy feel boring. What could the fisherman do when he feel boring. He don't have money to travel, using his boat? How if the boat damage, how he get the money to repair it? How if one day he sick. Money is everything concern!
Can i conclude that, 我的人生就是為了賺錢？但是賺錢就是為了好好的過我的人生，
結論是無解。
Thursday 17 March 2011
瞎咪？1
不知道什麽時候，我每天上網就看你的Blog,聽上面的歌
上FB,很期待你的留言
因為你，我開始喜歡上藤井樹的小說，每天一得空，就把電話拿出來看。
如果，兩個人的步伐一樣，想的東西也一樣吧
想起那天，我們兩個並肩而走，不知怎的，步伐就是不一樣，感覺上我們相差不到5公分，可是距離好像很遙遠。
我看著你，就好像一個買了最遠位置的觀眾在看一個歌手在臺上發光發熱。我感覺到你的存在，而你卻忽略了幾十萬人中的我。
上FB,很期待你的留言
因為你，我開始喜歡上藤井樹的小說，每天一得空，就把電話拿出來看。
如果，兩個人的步伐一樣，想的東西也一樣吧
想起那天，我們兩個並肩而走，不知怎的，步伐就是不一樣，感覺上我們相差不到5公分，可是距離好像很遙遠。
我看著你，就好像一個買了最遠位置的觀眾在看一個歌手在臺上發光發熱。我感覺到你的存在，而你卻忽略了幾十萬人中的我。
Sunday 13 March 2011
我妒忌了嗎？
我妒忌了嗎？是的有一點。可是我憑什麽？她又不是我的
我不是很想和她有進一步的關係的嗎？現在她開始融入了我的圈子，怎麼我一點都不高興呢？
原本以為睡醒又可以重新出發，可是一開fb就看到他們互相的留言。
現在我要去那個男性朋友的店了，等下我要怎樣面對他？
感覺上我會不大理睬他的說。我昨天是不是不應該帶她出來叻？
煩惱啊~~希望等下運動可以讓我忘記一切。
一個缺乏安全感的人要如何給別人安全感？
難道我又要把我自己藏起來？已經藏了這麼多年了，才剛冒頭又縮回去？
她說自己常常想太多，我又何嘗不是
男生的妒忌，看起來和女生的不一樣，可是心裡的痛處是一樣的
1/4/2011更新：今天我feel到了一個女生的妒忌，原來妒忌也可以輕輕的，緩緩的~好像一陣輕風飄過，我聞到了，可是當我想抓住它的時候，它又消失了。
我不是很想和她有進一步的關係的嗎？現在她開始融入了我的圈子，怎麼我一點都不高興呢？
原本以為睡醒又可以重新出發，可是一開fb就看到他們互相的留言。
現在我要去那個男性朋友的店了，等下我要怎樣面對他？
感覺上我會不大理睬他的說。我昨天是不是不應該帶她出來叻？
煩惱啊~~希望等下運動可以讓我忘記一切。
一個缺乏安全感的人要如何給別人安全感？
難道我又要把我自己藏起來？已經藏了這麼多年了，才剛冒頭又縮回去？
她說自己常常想太多，我又何嘗不是
男生的妒忌，看起來和女生的不一樣，可是心裡的痛處是一樣的
1/4/2011更新：今天我feel到了一個女生的妒忌，原來妒忌也可以輕輕的，緩緩的~好像一陣輕風飄過，我聞到了，可是當我想抓住它的時候，它又消失了。
又失敗了嗎？
凌晨三點鐘，躺在床上翻來翻去的睡不著，部落格成了我發洩的最佳軌道。
初中~暗戀的第一個女生S,初三那年的運動會，通過sms跟她表白：失敗
初三那年，因為身高的關係，我坐在最前面那一排。S就坐在我的右邊，我們之間隔了一條走到，就是正中間那一條，老師每天上課就在那一條走道上走來走去的那一條。我每天一邊望著老師，一邊在看她。特別是國文課的時候，因為國文老師很喜歡吧右手放在我桌子，左手在她的桌子的教書，而我就在這個時候假裝在看老師，其實在望她。
還記得那天，我跑去一個角落頭發送訊息給她，然後快速的跑到她的面前。我看到她在看訊息，抬頭望了我一下，然後沒有任何表情的，和隔壁的朋友繼續聊天。我知道我失敗了。
“表白”是什麽？是一個形式而已，正確的順序應該是：事實上已經成為你的女朋友了，你才能向人家表白，水到渠成。
高中~暗戀的第二個女生Y,由於被同學們發現我暗戀她，不敢繼續下去：失敗
有的男生，就怕別人說自己什么死纏爛打，落下不好的名聲。可是我覺得男生追求自己喜歡的女孩子，受了點挫折還繼續對這個女孩子好，說明人家確實很喜歡，很有誠意，如果沒成功，也不遺憾，並沒什么啊？誰讓人家喜歡了？最討厭別人跟著瞎摻乎，也最討厭那種自己沒主意，過于在乎別人對自己看法的男生，活該這種男生找不到女朋友。
大學~暗戀的第三個女生C,暗戀了很久。朋友都知道，但是因為怕失敗，完全沒有行動：失敗
男生就該勇敢一點，去追求自己喜歡的女孩子，不要那么畏畏縮縮，一來是讓人覺得你沒男人氣概，二來是你自己怪難受的，然而最最最重要的還是：最后你什么都得不到。幸福總是自己掙來的，別指望別人施舍給你！
曾幾何時，我的想法是等女生來追我。身邊就有一個成功的例子。可是我有不是很帥或很有錢，憑什麽女生會來追我。而且，應該很少女生會放下身段去追求男生的吧~
現在~第四個女生R,昨天跟她去書展，剛剛和她去遊樂園玩了回來。臨別前問了她一句：“下次有機會再一起出去玩?"可惜被拒絕了。今天約她出來參加公司的活動，朋友一看到她，第一句就問，你女朋友？女生臉皮比較薄，她會不會因此有一點抗拒了呢？玩到一些活動，要兩個人一組的，我感覺她有點不願意和我一組，可是我帶她出來，沒有可能讓她和別人一組的吧，怎樣說我都不應該拋下她的嘛~雖然我感覺和她一組有點尷尬。到有結束的時候，看到她都只和我朋友聊天，心情有點down了。載她回家時，也不懂說什麽好，就問些我都已經知道答案的問題吧了=。=
跟她相處了一整天，應該被她發現了我的不少缺點了~笑的時候很色、無趣、悶騷等等，還有我無端端老實告訴她我016的號碼竟然不是DIGI而是MAXIS的，她有不高興和我sms比較貴 =.=
她啊~她常說自己很emo,不喜歡化妝（我喜歡），愛看書（我也一樣），可愛（重點），喜歡音樂（有氣質！）。
如果你受到一次挫折，就立刻離開，再也不去答理這個女孩，把自己緊緊地保護起來，默默地舔舐傷口，在你痛苦的同時，殊不知，那個女孩子也許也正在心里遺憾、后悔呢！也許她會偷偷哭泣，后悔拒絕了你，再看到你漠然的眼神，她也很痛心，但是她卻不會對你說，絕對不會請求你回來追她。你的過度的自尊心，可能會傷害了女孩子敏感的心。
...追女生做是一種嚴肅的社會活動 千萬不要把人家搞煩了，要給自己留后路。大丈夫何患無妻？有些女生確實勢利眼（少數），如果不服氣，你可以發憤圖強，用事實証明“她當時瞎了眼”，絕對不要誤人誤己
就到此為止，沒有結局xD
一個女仔寫既追女方法
初中~暗戀的第一個女生S,初三那年的運動會，通過sms跟她表白：失敗
初三那年，因為身高的關係，我坐在最前面那一排。S就坐在我的右邊，我們之間隔了一條走到，就是正中間那一條，老師每天上課就在那一條走道上走來走去的那一條。我每天一邊望著老師，一邊在看她。特別是國文課的時候，因為國文老師很喜歡吧右手放在我桌子，左手在她的桌子的教書，而我就在這個時候假裝在看老師，其實在望她。
還記得那天，我跑去一個角落頭發送訊息給她，然後快速的跑到她的面前。我看到她在看訊息，抬頭望了我一下，然後沒有任何表情的，和隔壁的朋友繼續聊天。我知道我失敗了。
“表白”是什麽？是一個形式而已，正確的順序應該是：事實上已經成為你的女朋友了，你才能向人家表白，水到渠成。
高中~暗戀的第二個女生Y,由於被同學們發現我暗戀她，不敢繼續下去：失敗
有的男生，就怕別人說自己什么死纏爛打，落下不好的名聲。可是我覺得男生追求自己喜歡的女孩子，受了點挫折還繼續對這個女孩子好，說明人家確實很喜歡，很有誠意，如果沒成功，也不遺憾，並沒什么啊？誰讓人家喜歡了？最討厭別人跟著瞎摻乎，也最討厭那種自己沒主意，過于在乎別人對自己看法的男生，活該這種男生找不到女朋友。
大學~暗戀的第三個女生C,暗戀了很久。朋友都知道，但是因為怕失敗，完全沒有行動：失敗
男生就該勇敢一點，去追求自己喜歡的女孩子，不要那么畏畏縮縮，一來是讓人覺得你沒男人氣概，二來是你自己怪難受的，然而最最最重要的還是：最后你什么都得不到。幸福總是自己掙來的，別指望別人施舍給你！
曾幾何時，我的想法是等女生來追我。身邊就有一個成功的例子。可是我有不是很帥或很有錢，憑什麽女生會來追我。而且，應該很少女生會放下身段去追求男生的吧~
現在~第四個女生R,昨天跟她去書展，剛剛和她去遊樂園玩了回來。臨別前問了她一句：“下次有機會再一起出去玩?"可惜被拒絕了。今天約她出來參加公司的活動，朋友一看到她，第一句就問，你女朋友？女生臉皮比較薄，她會不會因此有一點抗拒了呢？玩到一些活動，要兩個人一組的，我感覺她有點不願意和我一組，可是我帶她出來，沒有可能讓她和別人一組的吧，怎樣說我都不應該拋下她的嘛~雖然我感覺和她一組有點尷尬。到有結束的時候，看到她都只和我朋友聊天，心情有點down了。載她回家時，也不懂說什麽好，就問些我都已經知道答案的問題吧了=。=
跟她相處了一整天，應該被她發現了我的不少缺點了~笑的時候很色、無趣、悶騷等等，還有我無端端老實告訴她我016的號碼竟然不是DIGI而是MAXIS的，她有不高興和我sms比較貴 =.=
她啊~她常說自己很emo,不喜歡化妝（我喜歡），愛看書（我也一樣），可愛（重點），喜歡音樂（有氣質！）。
如果你受到一次挫折，就立刻離開，再也不去答理這個女孩，把自己緊緊地保護起來，默默地舔舐傷口，在你痛苦的同時，殊不知，那個女孩子也許也正在心里遺憾、后悔呢！也許她會偷偷哭泣，后悔拒絕了你，再看到你漠然的眼神，她也很痛心，但是她卻不會對你說，絕對不會請求你回來追她。你的過度的自尊心，可能會傷害了女孩子敏感的心。
...追女生做是一種嚴肅的社會活動 千萬不要把人家搞煩了，要給自己留后路。大丈夫何患無妻？有些女生確實勢利眼（少數），如果不服氣，你可以發憤圖強，用事實証明“她當時瞎了眼”，絕對不要誤人誤己
就到此為止，沒有結局xD
一個女仔寫既追女方法
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